I am not. This is pretty bad. Lots of people are telling me not to worry about my weight and just focus on not smoking. I just can't do that. I'm out of control. Every week I'm up another pound. Every week I'm more discouraged and think it's not worth it and just start smoking again. At least when I was smoking, the weight didn't come on this fast. I had something else to do when I got bored/stressed/sad/angry... now I eat. And eat and eat and eat. When I smoked and was hungry or wanted a snack, I would have a cigarette. Now I eat. And eat and eat and eat.
I thought posting once a week would make me more accountable. I guess not.
I won't go back to smoking. I just needed to get my thoughts out of my head and onto "paper". I will re-think my Loser Monday strategy. Maybe I'll get my mouth wired shut for 6 months. Maybe I will re-join Weight Watchers and physically go to meetings (I was doing it online). I know I can lose the weight. I did it before. Took me 2 years but I did it.
Anyway...
58 days smoke free
865 cigarettes NOT smoked
$239.00 saved
and at Anna's suggestion...
spools of thread purchased - (from 2 weeks ago) 41 spools! I didn't add to my spool collection last week. I'm working on building up my embroidery thread collection so I bought 6 spools for that. I also bought 35 spools of cotton thread from Connecting Threads. Can't beat the price and the size of the spool for the money.
I have more New Hampshire adventures to share with you and some pictures but that post will have to wait until I get home tonight.
Jen
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If you can find someone to wire mouths shut, let me know, and I'll go with you! I understand the struggle, but am amazed that you are controlling the smoking urge. Hang in there.
ReplyDeleteJust look at that cute face of your sweet little girl and know that you will get to spend many more years with her....enough to make you swear off cigarettes. My father was 46 when he died, and I picked up the Camel that he dropped when he collapsed. A horrible memory for me and one you do not wish on your adorable daughter.
ReplyDeleteI agree with others...the weight will be another issue. Just pat yourself on the back for not smoking. That makes you a hero in my book. XXX Annie
Woohoo -- look at all those spools of thread that no smoking has earned for you! I do believe that little Punkie Pie gets cuter every time I come by for a visit. Love the little kitty pictures (sorry about Stanley) and she looks like she's having a great time on her rock!
ReplyDeleteAwww... we are SO in the same boat, Jen. I don't even bother to weigh myself anymore because it's just depressing.
ReplyDeleteI took out my spring/summer clothes on Friday. I wonder if any of them will fit me. sigh.
No matter what YOU think, you are doing fabulous and you should not downplay your success in quitting smoking because of a few gained pounds. Take your own advice (not about wiring your jaw shut, silly) and do something else when you want to eat. How about playing with all your spools of thread?
Yeah, yeah, I know... I need to take that advice too!
You best hang in there and do not even talk about smoking. Who gives a rip if your gaining weight. WE care that you are NOT smoking. That's what is most important. Just look at that beautiful little girl you have there. She needs you!!!! You need to focus on the not smoking first, the weight next.
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